2007 came and passed.
i am still suffering from a major hangover from india.
i hate this feeling. i hate this feeling every year. first it was aceh, now it's india.
and everytime when i come back, it's the end of the year.

i never liked the end of the year, it always give me a sense of uncertainty, unknown of the challenges that are going to be laid ahead.
i always have to tell myself to be hopeful and to put all disappointments that have passed aside.
how many times can i convince myself that the year ahead will be much better?

so much for the faint-hearted
but i think i will be hopeful.

2007 has been nice.
intern-ed at mcys and met fabulous pple like ky and debbie.
then worked for campha, zoo and sentosa ((:
uni life which consist of hall life :D
and lastly my india trip.
it was nice.

i wanna blog more abt the india trip.
maybe another day.
welcome back ky and regina. hope cambodia was nice :D

i am back :D

the trip was good, enriching, tiring, different, heart wrenching, wonderful, sickly, fantastic, tremendously emotional, caring, nice, sweet and everything good.

the weather was way too cold. the people there were way too nice.
the food there was way too spicy and strong in taste.

and the people are the ones i am missing most.
jr's family. pastor george's family.

i came back today to check my email and 'oh my goodness lakshimi',
i saw an email from the sisters at the maranatha home 'to share my love and her journey'
it was just a simple email which says a lot.

To my dear sister annei,

how is your journey.Iam praying for you and for your family. thanks for your help. thanks a lot for your love i cannot for get your comeing and i won't for get you on first day you talked with me .i will pray for you in my every day prayer .pls replay me and pray for me .bye annie

Yours loveingly, Hephzi joice.

the tremendous effort put in to type an email in English. the constant prayers for us and our families that they will never meet. and just a few words mean so much.
so much.

forever in my prayers. the boys and the girls. and the families.

i might not be able to speak tamil as well as the tamil speakers within the team,
i might not be able to put in my 101% in serving them
i might not be able to give them any financial assistance.
but i could do is to give them my truest heart, filled with flaws and tarnishes.

ooty is a very very nice place. breathtaking. truest to nature.
mountains after mountains. walking through clouds and feeling droplets in your face.
stargazing in the cold, putting firecrackers and shooting sparklers into the air.
carrying valencia in the arms, caressing her hair and emitting all maternal instincts.
cutting weeds with sickle in the hands under the sweatless sun.
falling sick and having an illusion that the doctor was hot.

so much more. can't really concentrate now.
ttyl! :D
-snorts and sign out-

i saw 3 shooting stars tonight.
it was awesoooommmmeee. i wish i could see more in india.

i am prepared for the trip.
mentally at least cos my bag is still not packed
nothing will bring me down.
i am just gng to do what i am supposed to do. no korean dramas.

it was nice. tonight.
my zoo gang, s24 class and meeting up with dev.
i guess life has been movin too fast. way too fast.

kinda late now and i am talking nonsense.
i saw 3 shooting stars.

haha! met up with the band-its last night.

still so cute and loveable!! WHAHAHA!

love them to bits! ((:

i miss ginny and jean )):
it seems that i am living in my own world and they are not in my life.
NI MEN ZAI NA LI?

gin's gone. eunice's gone.
regina and ky are leaving tonight. and i am leaving on sunday
ocip seems to be the hottest thing in town.
youths putting themselves into foreign third world countries to help the people.
isn't it fabulous? isn't it good to see youths being so enthusiastic abt helping the community?

but sometimes i wonder what are my motivations?
what's yours?

i should be and MUST BE slower to anger.
my trip shall be my test for it.
it was just the beginning. more to endure.
go with an open heart

a real busy week ahead.
work, trainings, bazaar items and pre-trip preparations
i need strength. pls give me.

i went back to work. zoo's still so fun.
rah jumping around, keepers consistently mocking me
and my regular bloopers on the walkie.
"roger. ehhhhhh. hello"
if life was just sitting by the enclosures and looking at the chimps
or dancing in the rain with the animals.
despite the many new faces, it still feels good to be back again.
which make it harder and harder to leave.









and stop being so full of yourself. i am trying to be nice.
very nice indeed.
and please don't test my patience.
i just wanna do what i always want to do. it was nice.
please don't make it bad.