i am terribly ignorant.
too overly occupied by myself, my problems, my fun, my world.
i don't even care what's happening outside my own world.

i always thought i know better. but i don't.
i thought i know everything about human emotions, human mindsets. but i don't.
i seriously don't.

i became so small. so small in this world.
a world with many other problems, preoccupations, politics.
i need to be more sensive.

social work is really fun. i can't deny.
i wish i could start practising it now. haha :D

f w o c supper, meeting and lunch were quite hilarious ((:
loads of lame jokes. everyone's nice and stuff and beginning to know one another.
can forsee a good 3 mths together.
but y e p is smth i don't think i can sacrifice, at least not that much.

i am losing my writing ablitiy. slowly but surely.
this ability i so desire and yearn.

things have been like in a whirlpool. turning forever but you just can't seem to stop it.
school. hall. my life.

fact that i accidentally chanced upon and so hate to accept.
long messages that woke me up from my slumber in the early morning.
and a gentle blessed lord's day.
how gracious can i be? tell me.

but as past came to light. new things came too.
it was confusing. it was fickle. it was just playing along.
but now, too much dependence.
it's like playing with fire.

too much aknowledgement. i just want things to be as it were.

;

i finally. i said finally got a rock off my back.
it was an enduring process but i still survived.

things will be good. it will be. and i don't really care.
dont really wanna go back to who i was and had been a long time ago.

but i am really tired now.
i need rest.