so miserable. having migraines suck.
it just slowly takes you out of your soul. clear your stomach. pound your brain into juices and make you almost incapable to do anything.

)):

today's migraine was so far the worst.
i feel like pulling off all my hair. bang my head on the wall. scream so loud that my mum can hear.
it was so painful.

but thank God there were pple around to show me concern. i really needed that ((:
and thank God that my dearest bro was at home and he can come and fetch me back.
and thank God for having powerful medicine that can cure this unbearable headache.

and yes, i am back home again :D

i miss the zoo. very much.
the urban escape in s'pore.

):

sat's lifespan day. tsks.

and i am glad i am back home.

social worker's day 2008! sw year 1s :D

i am really hungry now! -yells-
this is really weird. why am i hungry now? hmphs!

anw, i have been wanting to blog for ages. but everytime i am at the blog page, i realised i have nothing concrete, bloggable or even interesting to write.

what a tragic life!!
you know that feeling, when everything's good. so things just get monotonous.
i am in that state now. precisely my point.

learning social work is quite dishearterning. it just seems like u can nv be the right goody goody person to give help to others. i can't even help myself. how can i help others?
and the thing is, we have learnt how to be like this and how to be like that and subconsciously i will try not to do this and not do that. it's so hard to be nice. to be ever so tolerant. self-sacrificial.
tsks to the maximum max!!!

anw, that's not the point. i am just ranting from studying too much. UNPRODUCTIVELY
and doing everything else other than mugging

oh, i am happy tonight though i am hungry cos' i sent eunice home safely tonight. and yangy got to watch his soccer too! :D and i get to start attempting to study!

pictures!!

my most fave man! i need a man like him!


i just thought this picture was funny! (maybe just me. tsks!)
we are trying to reenact the day at comm's ball!

yep durian day! :D i ate so much that it reminds me of my pri sch day!


the girls! :D (look at my legs! it looks horrible!)

ablk during command )):
don't ask me why i was crying even though i am not graduating


comm's ball with alexxx.
if u guys don't know, he's my church mate and also xxx's eyecandy in nj. i rem i drew him before while sitting behind him during one of the assemblies. and forever mocking xxx abt him! :D
and the world is damn small, cos his sister is my friend's eyecandy too!

when is the match ending? so that yangy can go home and i can go and slp!
yawns!

and yes yes, before i forget,
everyone, PLEASE PLEASE STUDY STUDY HARD HARD!
all for God's Glory! (for ky esp!!)

nights worldlings!

and i know myself too well. i wont have the courage and i can't walk away. somehow.

my most fave committee :D KRV's gaw!

i had so much fun with these girls and it was really really nice!

pushing the trolly back from seng sh iong. chasing after rolling oatmeals, milo tins. hitting curb. watching cars. running before the bus knock us down.

went over to win d s or home today to pass them the food that they have requested.

we also got a single tin of snake powder for each of them.

so we presented to them and interacted with the elderly.

this aunty then started pouring her lungs out to me. and i could see tears brimming in her eyes.

at that instance, i wish that i am able to speak all the dialects and tell her things will be good. things are fine now. you are here. and there will be people looking after you.

but my hokkien is like -_-"

and all i could do was to nod my head, smile and give a gentle pat.

it was all that she needs i guess. a listening ear.

it was good overall.

we had a nice debrief. the 4 of us.

and it was nice that we all have smth to bring back with us. to think about.

this is life isn't it.

birth. live. death.

and, i teared.

once and once again. it was like a fairytale come true.

but many people told me and i've seen it a thousand times - fairytales don't come true.

yet to me, i choose to believe.

ignorance. folly.

i wish i could come to my senses soon.

dear Lord, give me the wisdom.

there's no one else like you. but you are gone.

hello everyone! :D
i am in a damn chirpy mood today! lalalalalala! ((:

days after that previous blog entry have been harrrpeeeee days!
wed was fun fun fun! :D
met up with shu and eu at vivo. ate. chatted and laughed so badly! i seriously needed that man!
no pictures cos eunice wanna use her toy holga to take pictures.
then met yangy at holland v and chatted somemore. eu and i ate so much cans!!
and and and and the main highlight was turning circles in the holland v carpark! ((:

thurs was command. super emo day.
nice hall food (like finally!) and fantastic seniors' performances!
should i command? should i not? hmm! dont wanna think now!

met up with the fe girls on sun! they came over to our church! so sweet!
but i overslept so i met them after service for lunch! ((:
met up with the rest for dan's bday! i promise i wont forget anymore bdays! (:
so lunch part 2 at marche!
chatted, gossiped and laughed nonstop.
steamboat dinner dengan keluagar saya! (dinner with my family!)
mummy so cute!

this is a damn bimbotic entry but ya!
i am super happy today!
no late night meetings. nice breezy night. happy neighbours and nice cute friends!

congratulations! can't wait to drive too!!

ky looks cute in this picture with a watch that looks like her :D
;

everything is kicking in. and tonight, i gave myself up.

i'm so terribly exhausted. badly stretched. and tonight, i am going to admit i am failing myself.

i'll always rem qiling telling me, 'let sadness be always one night.'

and tonight is the night.

just give me one night.

;

i wanna study. i wanna catch up with my work. i wanna...

but i ain't got the time.

and looking at the pictures in india make me want to fly away asap.

as soon as possible.

what an april fool's day. me fooling myself!

actually, i don't feel as bad as i sound.

i am kinda exaggerating this entire entry. i just wanna whine so badly.

but in hall, i can't. cause everyone has the same amount of workload i have.

if i whine to them, it just make everyone feel worse.

give me rest, Lord. give me.

bring me back to You. i've been away for too long.

;

some pictures for the jaded hearted (:


thanks selene for that email. miss the zoo. miss india. miss c2c.

terribly cold weather with tropical ethnic costume.

my most favourite mat :D

my sathya boy!!

:D those who will always stay

more c2c days :D

and till then. love 5th floor. forever 5th floor.

'we were made to be lovers bold in broken places,

pouring ourselves out again and again,

until we're called home.'

itsuagaingnagain.