ain't that sweettttttttttt?

pop yourself some pills, drink some cough syrup and sleep your life away (:

the end comes tomorrow.
xing xing yao bao zha
haha.



i miss those days. when smiles and laughters were real.
(:



i love You, Lord.
bring me back to You.

i am recovering. i guess the adrenaline from rag day is pushing me forward.
but krishnan says i am highly volatile. my moods are still fluctuating. very much.

i think i scare d u y ao just now.
i started screaming while doing stuff for dating game and she suddenly rushed into my room
haha. don't worry. i am fine (:

i am strong. i know i am. i gonna stand up and be strong.
afterall, i am mightyannie for a reason.

you know, sometimes i really hate being me.
it's freaking tiring and it kinda sucks sometimes.
why do i bloodily poke my nose into everything?

i think i need a long break away from hall.
sometimes i think my smiles are gonna fall apart. do my smiles even look sincere?
i wouldn't know cos i am too tired to even bother. but the truth is, i really am sincere.

"guys relieve stress by going into their 'caves' to figure out problems ALONE.
they do not need girls to go into their 'caves' to help make them feel better."

hais. that's so sad. and i always thought a two-way traffic is the best.
but i am REALLY REALLY thankful tt guys will always be there when girls are in their caves.

actually i am quite upset behind all the smiles.
but i need to be strong when things don't go the way i wanted.
or else life will be back to those in nj. which is something i wished i will nv experience again.

i miss my ginnywife. my nienies
i miss my trio.
i miss my rojak.

i would love to turn back time.

i miss my own voice.
i miss my own laughters.


tmrw's rag day. the day when all raggers have been working so hard for.
i am so proud of the rest of the OP comm. the flaggers and the raggers.
very very much. and i am sure their efforts will be paid off.


i want sanity.
i know how my mood fluctuates these few days.
i can be talking nonsense for a second and the next i am brimming with tears.

this is madness, isn't it.
it feels like my j1 days all over again.
and the feeling sucks.


on a lighter note, i am thankful i found friends who understand. baobaonya and khrisnam.
and the other guys (who might not share my sentiments ALL the time)
this experience is something that only those who went thru it will understand.
bystanders would nv understand the entire experience.

many might say that they are proud to be a fw oc er.
i would just say that i am proud to be one. but i am fine without it too.

the experience i have gotten from f w o c was definitely one of a kind. and i've learnt a lot from it.
and i seriously enjoyed being friends with the freshmen.
and i am happy to see one of my freshman turn from a quiet boy to a chirpy and talkative man.


these 3 mths haven been that smoothsailing and easy.
but the best thing that has happened to me was joining kryep.
the friends i've made. the care i've been showered. the love that i've found from all people.
it has made my 3 mths more worthwhile.


and i am REALLY REALLY glad to have loads of attention showering on me thru fw oc and yep.
i nv felt so cared for before. it makes me feel like i am of existence.
i guess i really need that.
on the other hand, it makes me really really dependent.
once fw oc ends, and i am back to civilian life.
would things still be the same?
or would things just disappear and pretend as if nothing has ever happened before?

no one knows.


i want to be nice cos i really needed that care and concern which i've been missing since young.

alright.

goodnight worldlings.
rag day tmrw and we are gng to bag all the prizes again! :D





we are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless.
we don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers.
we were made to be lovers bold in broken places,
pouring ourselves out again and again until we're call home

i am finally finally back.
the bulk of my activities have eventually come to an end.
i seriously can't describe the feelings i am having right now.
a sense of relief? a tinge of sadness? a sense of regret? or a heart filled with happiness?
i am not sure of any feelings right now.
maybe just emotionless

too many things that we've been thru i guess.
it wasn't easy on many of us.
we lost and we gained.
experiences, friendships, family, personal growth and respect.

i seriously wondered how i managed to trudge my way thru the entire 3 mths.
looking back, it really wasn't easy.

anw, i am in a situation where i am stuck.
i don't wanna care. and don't wanna feel anything

just move along.

and all in all,
well done f w o c e r s. well done annie.