things will turn out really fine for all the efforts we've put in.

see ya guys tmrw! (:

'we are only asked to love,

to offer hope to the many hopeless.'

thank God we've survived.

thank God for trees.

thank God for journey mercies.

happy children's day and selamat hari raya! (:

i love public holidays but not on my free day! but i've been self-declaring free days so who cares.
this sem is like my slackest sem ever with loads of other random activities and then making it super tiring.

back from china on sat morn. china is an awesome place.
every parts of this motherland has its own surprises.
haji lane + holland v, an area with all the clubs and pubs, goodlooking but chinese speaking bouncers in kunming. who dare say that c h i n a is boringgggg!!!

the trip there was filled with mixed emotions seriously. i'm not too sure of what i was feeling actually. i was homesick. so badly wanted to fly back to s'pore immediately on the first day.

being a leader for a yep trip has so much more expectations than i've ever imagined. it's not just having a program that everyone will get to benefit from it, it's also about safety, welfare, enjoyment and most importantly accountability. it's so much more responsibilities on my back.

and i wouldn't deny that there was at least one time, i wanna back out from all these (and all other commitments) so that i can just leave a laid-back lifestyle. but guess everything's too late and there must be a reason why i'm made to do all these. so i guess, i will just endure.

love endureth forever.

studying's taking a backseat. i better bring it back soon. ):

and i realised how i can make a big fuss out of nothing. i will find ways to rectify the situation but at the end of the day, i will just settle for the screwed up situation.
i'm like this, isn't it?
being fickle, being impulsive, making things better but in the end it doesn't entirely solve the issue.

guess i must deal with this weakness of mine.
and there's another weakness that i've been praying very very hard to try to rectify it.
pray that i will have a lot a lot a lot of grace. to forgive and ask for forgiveness.

nights people.
(:

i fall short of perfection.
very far from it actually.
if i could, i would rather not care and live a carefree lifestyle.
why did i carry so many things on my shoulders and get into so much shite?

guide me, O Lord.
let me see Your face.
it has been a long time.
hear my plea.

my life now is quite screwed.
i need something/ someone or just some miracle to bring me back on track.

now i feel like punching my face ten times, slap myself inside out outside in.
haha. but i don't know. i seriously don't know what i am feeling inside.
it's scary. that void. it's like... so scary and threatening.

i miss the feeling of having a purpose. of having something to look forward to.
this entire sem is so surreal. so weird.

i hope things will get better. please let it be.
or else i'm really clueless what's going to happen to me.

oh. i am leaving for yunnan on tues. mon night actually.
pray for journey mercies. pray for renewal of soul.
pray for success and good interpersonal relationship skills.
pray for good companionship (:

Cause when we run, when we hide,
We deny whats inside...

life has been good. i think.
it's just packed with tons of work, plans, commitments and yah, hall activities.
studying, yunnan, slacking and just simply hanging out! (playing guitar hero!)

nth much to blog i guess. this blogging thing gonna suck. hahaha!
i less than 3 life (: wtshit
nivekis A PIECE OF HILARIOUS SHITE!

hmmms. time to get things serious i guess.
ystd was a day of mixed emotions.
and yunnan is getting SCARRRYYYY!

alright folks. i gonna slp early! my eye bags are damn horrendous.
nights worldlings!


What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it,
What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it,
If youre heart is beating, then its for a reason, girl,
If youre not willing to start, what good is a heart?

and till we are old and till we rest in dementia,

we will always be the same. no matter what.

we miss u, gin.

;

i had a really bad sore eye. it was tearing NON-STOP

and her infamous "jean smile" but i was too happy so i couldn't do it.