happy children's day and selamat hari raya! (:

i love public holidays but not on my free day! but i've been self-declaring free days so who cares.
this sem is like my slackest sem ever with loads of other random activities and then making it super tiring.

back from china on sat morn. china is an awesome place.
every parts of this motherland has its own surprises.
haji lane + holland v, an area with all the clubs and pubs, goodlooking but chinese speaking bouncers in kunming. who dare say that c h i n a is boringgggg!!!

the trip there was filled with mixed emotions seriously. i'm not too sure of what i was feeling actually. i was homesick. so badly wanted to fly back to s'pore immediately on the first day.

being a leader for a yep trip has so much more expectations than i've ever imagined. it's not just having a program that everyone will get to benefit from it, it's also about safety, welfare, enjoyment and most importantly accountability. it's so much more responsibilities on my back.

and i wouldn't deny that there was at least one time, i wanna back out from all these (and all other commitments) so that i can just leave a laid-back lifestyle. but guess everything's too late and there must be a reason why i'm made to do all these. so i guess, i will just endure.

love endureth forever.

studying's taking a backseat. i better bring it back soon. ):

and i realised how i can make a big fuss out of nothing. i will find ways to rectify the situation but at the end of the day, i will just settle for the screwed up situation.
i'm like this, isn't it?
being fickle, being impulsive, making things better but in the end it doesn't entirely solve the issue.

guess i must deal with this weakness of mine.
and there's another weakness that i've been praying very very hard to try to rectify it.
pray that i will have a lot a lot a lot of grace. to forgive and ask for forgiveness.

nights people.
(: