my life now is quite screwed.
i need something/ someone or just some miracle to bring me back on track.

now i feel like punching my face ten times, slap myself inside out outside in.
haha. but i don't know. i seriously don't know what i am feeling inside.
it's scary. that void. it's like... so scary and threatening.

i miss the feeling of having a purpose. of having something to look forward to.
this entire sem is so surreal. so weird.

i hope things will get better. please let it be.
or else i'm really clueless what's going to happen to me.

oh. i am leaving for yunnan on tues. mon night actually.
pray for journey mercies. pray for renewal of soul.
pray for success and good interpersonal relationship skills.
pray for good companionship (: